Can you guys believe we are already half-way into the month!?!
It’s so crazy.
Last week, I posted my New Year’s resolution and a part of that resolution was to start posting 3 times a week.
Which had me thinking, what the heck am I going to write?!
Although I can’t say which days of the week I’ll be posting those three times (still trying to feel it out), I can tell you this, each week we’ll be touching upon a particular theme: Weekly Reflection, Literature, and Lifestyle.
Since I’m currently working towards being my own ~*girl boss*~ each theme is going to be incredibly insightful and filled with amazing topics, so be excited!!
Being that it’s the beginning of the week, today’s post is going to be our Weekly Reflection.
So without further ado, let’s get started!
Last week, you guys saw my hefty (yet pretty attainable) New Years resolution.
In addition to those career/life goals, I’m also trying to reach some personal and mental goals.
I recently heard about Word of the Year on a podcast episode of The Simple Show and was so intrigued.
Word of the Year is exactly what it sounds like – you choose a word and that’s your theme for the year!
In the episode, they talked about agency and being your own boss, being enough along with a lot of other awesome things and I was so at awe!
I don’t know why I hadn’t heard of this before, but I decided to take on the challenge so my Word of the Year is patience.
Patience is something that I’ve never really had. I’m such a go, go, go type of person and have been this way for so long, that I really think this will not only be a challenge but an extreme learning experience.
Being patient also goes hand-in-hand with taking things slow and being open to failure while also staying grounded.
I’ve said this quite a few times in this blog, but being that my boyfriend and I just moved to a completely new place, becoming grounded in our new home is something that is incredibly necessary.
Not just in our new home, but in general.
I’m the type of person who says I love to travel but I also hate planes and when I am on vacation, I quite often long my comfy bed and the comfort of my home.
This past week, I’ve been really been challenging myself to be more patient and be more present.
I know that summer will come, I know that next year will come and any aspirations I have for then (or before) are going to be accomplished.
So why am I in a rush?
This is something that is really hard for me especially because of my anxiety and depression but ever since I started implementing a new mind set, I’ve been feeling a lot better.
A few other things that I started doing that’s been different, is focusing on positive affirmation, getting rid of negative self-talk, changing my perspective, and being more present.
Like I said, I know I will accomplish all my aspirations and goals – whether I accomplish them this year, or down the line, I have confidence in myself and my work.
I just want to enjoy the process because by the time I get to the place in my life I aspire to be in, I want to be able to look back and smile.
When I think of what I want years down the line, I think back to high-school and college.
I completely dreaded the experience and hated the whole thing. Those are eight years of my life I’ll never get back.
So yeah, maybe things aren’t ideal right now but I’m getting somewhere and before I know it, I’ll be 60 and looking back at this whole rollercoaster that is life so might as well enjoy it!
Going back to the new things I’ve been implementing.
I am currently on Day 15 of the Yoga with Adriene challenge and I’m so happy that I started!
She is such an awesome lady and is really helping me with this journey of mine.
In her classes, I’m able to slow things down and really enjoy it (or as much as I can when my arms are shaking mid-plank!)
I remember the moment she said (and this may not be verbatim), “The way you are on the mat is a reflection of how you are off the mat.”
At that moment, it clicked.
I immediately realized, I am rushing through this and clearly I am doing the same in life!
This past year I longed to be where I am right now and as much as I thought I was trying to enjoy the process at the time, I can recall that my actions said otherwise.
Seeing other people who are actively going through what you are, or have in the past, is so refreshing and really helps me see things (and myself) in a different perspective.
I’ve also been meditating every day and getting rid of negative self-talk by focusing on positive affirmations.
Instead of focusing on what I don’t have, I’ve been trying to make an effort to focus on what I do have.
The moment I started to change that mindset is when I realized that what I have right this moment is enough which is amazing!
This week, I plan on doing more of what I’ve been implementing so far in order for it all to become apart of my subconscious mind.
I want to be able to get on the mat, meditate, radiate positivity every day and not even think about it.
I’m in such a strange part of my life right now and focusing on my mental health and being positive is all I have that’s keeping me together (aside from my wonderful boyfriend and my family back home, of course!)
Sometimes in a lot of cases, all we have is ourselves and we need to be able to stay strong.
I have so many goals and aspirations that I want to accomplish in this life and I want to make sure I do it in the best way possible by living my best life!
So if that means baking brownies and watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians or researching a ton of publishing info for my freelance job or spending the whole day in bed with a book in hand – then so be it!
I know I’m not in the place I’d want to be, but if I keep that mindset then I’ll never get there!
I honestly think, with everything that I’ve experienced mentally these past couple of weeks, that we make our situations – good or bad.
Just because we have it all, doesn’t mean we are happy and vice-versa.
We have to be happy and grateful for what we have right this moment because if we think that X, Y, Z is going to make us happy and that we won’t be happy until we get that – we’re wrong.
I’m realizing this to be true because I was in such a negative space mentally a few weeks ago and I just kept thinking like damn, this time last year I dreamed to be where I am right now.
At that moment, I wasn’t happy because I was focusing on what I didn’t have which was my family around me and the comfort of no responsibilities.
While at the same time, last year I had those things and I wasn’t happy either!
That’s what made it clear to me: I am the source of my own happiness and I carry that with me wherever I go, with whatever I have.
And with that, I’ll leave you here – we have to make sure that we’re the own source of our happiness.
Do what fulfills you, wake up every morning feeling energized and go to sleep every night thankful to breathe another day.
Take it slow and enjoy the ride. We’ll get to where we need to be and we are right where we need to be, right here, right now.